And the day came
when the risk to remain tight in a bud
was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.
Anais Nin
I look forward to the day when writing is fun, the words flow and sharing seems normal. Someday I will quit hiding behind a screen name and an avatar and just be ME. I can feel that this is all getting closer, and I'm content where I am, but I am a little perplexed that I'm not already there.
This journey has given me a new appreciation for all of the courageous and generous bloggers out there who share themselves so freely and prolifically. I look forward to finding my voice, my unique value and joining the game.
Comments
Candy
Sat, 18 Jul 2009 22:20:47
Sat, 08 Aug 2009 12:34:56
Hey there, Sabrina!
Thank you so much for your comment on my new blog :) :) Looks like you've got a new one set up yourself that could use some encouraging commentary :)
Your quote is an interesting one, indeed! But in the context of Law of Attraction, I'm not so sure I'd personally want to give it much thought. Pain is a natural part of life, but I'm not confident it's a good motivator in "the right direction" anyway.
Regarding blossoming, I assume you are a reserved person, like I consider myself to be. Sure, sometimes I am creative and prolific but that doesn't mean I'm not reserved and shy.
Do you feel that you have moments of blossoming in your life? What kinds of things are you talking about and thinking about when you feel strong and smart and well-liked and whatever else you wish for in this "blossoming" feeling?
I'd really love to hear you write more about your vision of what Blossoming means to you :)
Jaina
http://casualdiary.com/law-of-attraction
Sat, 08 Aug 2009 23:18:52
Hi Jaina,
Thank you so much for taking the time to offer such useful input. I really appreciate it.
While I don't actively seek out or focus much on "pain," I do recognize that it has been during times of greatest contrast that I have tended to really clarify what I want and feel the inspiration to make effective change.
Currently, I feel most comfortable with 1:1 interactions that occur in person and in private. It is then that I feel the ideas flow, the conversation is easy, I feel confident about what I am expressing and the interaction feels joyous and uplifting. "Blossoming," for me, would be attaining that same comfort level with broader communications (groups, presentations, interviews, online sharing, etc.). I imagine this eventually feeling free, fun and natural.
In thinking this through, I am realizing that the biggest difference in the above interactions is that when I am relating with more than one individual, or if it is not in person, then my ability to read subtle signals (body language, eye movement, tone, energy, etc) from the other is hindered.
Which suggests to me that I may be tailoring my communication based on the feedback I am sensing from others, rather than paying attention to my own internal guidance regarding what and how I choose to share.
This has been helpful and will give me a lot to think about. Thanks!
Warm regards,
Sabrina
Sun, 13 Sep 2009 14:41:55
Well Sabrina good for you my beautiful friend. I love writing most of the time, and I hate reading, sifting and then having to disseminate all that info that makes my ginormous, honkin head hurt like a motha. So thank you for your law school like abilities, and for laying it out, and further exemplifying why none of us should try or pretend to love something, or should do something when those who genuinely feel it and are gifted with it are the ones meant to do it anyway. There you have it- a quasi-writer writing a big ole run on sentence.
Thank you for your gifts that I don't have, and quite frankly don't want right now. I love you very much.
Lori
